The power of love (part 2)

So, I arrive at the office and it's maybe midnight.  I sit down at my desk and then I here a knock at the window.

It's her.  The woman who entered my life completely unexpectedly 9 months ago.  We'd become friends, and she'd seen me--really seen me--long before we ever explored anything more than friendship with our relationship.  The circumstances are such that it might make for a really good novel, but I'm going to leave most of that out for now.

I open the door, and she tells me, "I'm breaking our agreement."  Earlier that day we'd decided we'd take a week apart without talking.  We'd only one week ago set out to explore a committed relationship, and now we were taking a week apart. 

I hugged her and invited her in.  She told me how she'd "hit the floor," meaning she'd done some deep emotional release work, earlier that day.

She talked about her thoughts and feelings and I just listened.  She too had felt as if not speaking for a week would have just been torture. 

As I write this, I am wondering how much detail do I go into here... hmmm...

When I started speaking, I related to her the events of the evening.  How I'd felt so much pain that it was hard to even smile.  And, when I started telling her about the kids, the orphan girls, and I shared about who I am for the youth of the world... the tears just flowed and flowed.  I wept.  Who I am for the children of the world... my relationship to them is the great love affair of my life.  I knew I would sacrifice anything to be who I could be for them.

She knew this, really.  She knows me.  She sees me.  She held me as I wept and wept and wept after and while watching the documentary Promises a few months ago.  There's one big thing for me to do in this life.  And I've spent my entire adult life sacrificing almost everything for to do it.  Nothing will sway me.

I continued talking and it was almost as if I wasn't doing the talking. 

This woman is someone who cares so deeply for the people in her life and for others, that she cannot live a normal life either.  She'll never be content just being "successful."  No, she's got to face every challenge to be who she sees she can be for humanity.

It became crystal clear to me who I could be for her and who we could be for each other, if we sacrificed a sexual/romantic relationship, and created a deep love relationship of a different kind.

Now, I know my last blog post may have left people wondering if I was going to propose to her.  Well, I did!  Just not in the usual way.  What I proposed was that we be allies together--be "the one" for each other--forever.  An incredible partnership was formed--and it 's not a sexual relationship.

I may actually have a wedding with her--but if I do it will be a whole new concept of wedding.  What is a wedding but a union of to souls, a vow publicly acknowledged?

(She and I had talked a few weeks ago about forming a whole new concept for weddings.  Why can't we each be "the one" for many people in our lives?  Why can't we live from a higher commitment to love, honor and cherish them?  Why not make such unions public, and with celebration??  I'm talking about ceremonies, where brothers and sisters in a family FORMALLY unite, exchanging vows.  I'm talking crazy, out of the box stuff here... it's a fascinating concept that I'll blog about some other time!)

No, I didn't get down on one knee.  No, I gave her no ring.  No, I will not be her husband.  No, we will not be making love.  But, Yes, we have an incredible bond, and I want to vow to honor that for the rest of my life.  I honor her always as an incredible woman, an incredible soul, in my life.

I was overcome with a sense of peace, of love, a sense of everything being perfect.  I knew it was right.  She was right there with me.  It was all very harmonious.  Perfect.

She and I are wed to the youth of the world... united by a common stand, a common vision.  We'll always be here for one another.  Who wants to join us?  Really, this kind of love is not a jealous love.  It's not sexually based.  It's open-ended.

There is no "other woman."  There is no logical reason really not to be in a romantic relationship with her--or perhaps there are "practical" reasons, but it's not about any of that.  It just seems perfect this way.  There's an inner knowing.  What can I say?

Well, so then tonight, guess who shows up at my office?  A woman with whom I had an incredible romantic relationship for 4 years.  A woman who saw me, believed in me and co-created a lot of the VisionForce work with me.  We've taken quite a while apart, and out of the blue she shows up...

Oh man, what am I sharing EVERYTHING now?  There's a really great story to tell about the conversation she and I had tonight.  Oh my... everything is coming together.  2006 has been incredible.  What does 2007 hold??